The key to surviving is to put one foot in front of the other and keep your head up. Depending on what you've been through this can vary in difficulty. I'm putting one foot in front of the other. I'm concentrating on the plans for my annual Oscar party instead.
I look forward to throwing this party every year. It's always a lot of fun. We all make our Oscar picks prior to the ceremony. I run a trivia challenge on the commercial breaks and I have tons of great food and prizes. I even have a fake Oscar which gets awarded to the person who gets the most categories right.
My friends are still checking up on me and I love them for it. Greg came over and kept me company last night. Tonight Lisa is going to come over. I really appreciate their support. I'm doing ok. I'm not perfect but I'm ok.
I've had time to process things. I've allowed myself to process them. The day after he broke his news to me I didn't allow myself to think about it. I didn't really want to face what it meant for me. I've discovered that inner core of steel inside me even though at some points in the day it feels tentative. I know with time it will only get stronger.
It still hurts and I'm sure it will for some time yet. He did not set out to deliberately hurt me. He's a good man. I learned a lot from him and he has changed my perspective and my life. I am grateful for these lessons and for the footprints he has left on my heart.
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